Happy or Sad Ending??

alhamdulillah, while writing this entry, i'm currently on my cozy bed in a small room in a small wooden house with my sister sleeping on my side.. hehe.. that means, I'm at home!! after all the tense and the last-minute studying for the final exam, skrg da bley bersuka ria n bermalas2an kt umah.. but it won't be long.. ari selasa ni da kna start 2wks attachment kt the best pharmacy ever in kt, Pharmacy Lim.. nasib baik sekejap jek sehari.. better than wasting my time kt umah doing mende2 lagha.. hehe..so, xnk ckp pnjg2 psl exam ri2.. I've done my best, so now leave the rest to Allah.. cume bley berharap lecturer2 yg semak kertas 2 lembut hati, dpt bg markah kesian sbb jwpn ntah pape.. huhu..

berakhirnye final exam utk sem ni, that means the end of our journey as a sem 1 3rd yr student.. fuh.. pejam celik pejam celik dah 3 thn msk pharmacy ni.. mcm br smlm jek rase g kuantan, angkat tgn bg nama nk tukar pharmacy.. haha.. n baru merasa msk thn baru wpon arini da 15 hb januari.. hehe.. a new year has come.. 2012.. I'm 22 this year.. can't wait to see what stores for me this year.. more hardships n stress, maybe?

looking back at the past, honestly aku rase, in 2011, I've learnt so many things and experiences that I've never gained before.. let's see...

1. I've traveled quite a lot last year.. especially during the 5 months holiday.. xde la byk sgt pon, n bukannye g jauh2 oversea pon.. lg2 bile ade minah 2org 2 tumpang umah aku for almost 2 weeks, ape lg.. g meronggeng la.. seriously, thanx 2 them jugakla aku bley g jln2 wpon area dekat2 jek.. nk ajak family aku, dyorg bukannye kaki jln.. so, kitorg smpt la pg taman tamadun islam (yg ni aku da boring pergi), pulau kapas (1st time snorkeling! n plg best, snorkeling pki seluar jeans.. duh!) n guided tour kt masjid kristal.. special kot.. pas2 travel ngn family.. since family aku bukannye kaki jln, kitorg mmg xbyk g bercuti.. klu plan nk g mane2, mesti dah half-way planning, cancel.. haih.. mmg hancur luluh la hati aku setiap kali jd cm2.. tp mase cuti ri2, kitorg secara xtersengaja pergi jln2.. mule2, g bukit tinggi.. 2 pon tetiba je nk singgah sbb kitorg dr bentong.. pas2, g melaka.. ni pon sbb akak aku tetiba dpt call kna g iview kt kolej risda, so aku n parents aku ikut, n kitorg stay kt a famosa resort.. so, smpt la aku n akak aku main air kt a famosa water world 2.. hehe.. seriously best.. n lastly, g srwk.. ni pon secara last minute kitorg g booking tket flight.. tp xbest sgt, sbb kitorg ddk kt umah abg aku jek.. xde jln2 pon.. setakat beli brg kt sibu jek.. tp okla drpd xg langsung..

~me n my sister b4 basah lencun main air~

~with my beloved boyfriend kat Bukit Tinggi~

~kami bertiga kat Pulau Kapas~

2. 3rd year pharmacy student - Clinical Pharmacy! subjek ni memerlukan kitorg pergi ke hosp, jupe patients and interpret their lab test.. mule2, pening2 n cuak gak la nk jupe patients.. pas2 lme2 ok jek.. tp part yg xbest is the report n the presentation.. standard la bdk pharmacy, report merata2.. fuh.. pjg cite sbnrnye klu nk ckp psl CP ni, dr kes groupnye, lecturernye, presentationnye, quiznyer.. mmg xkan abes.. tp secara konklusinye, aku dah start nmpk role of pmcist ni nnti kt hosp n the challenge that will awaits us bile da grad nnti.. syukur sgt2 sbb aku dpt group members yg komited, cooperate and supportive.. langsung xde masalah.. :) n not to forget, 1st tyme OSCE, counsel patient on asthma n chemo.. haha.. makcik "Kelly", xkan ku lupekan wajah mu yg blur yg menyebabkan aku ckp melayu.. hehe..

3. Jadi class rep utk Sem 1/Year 2 and also Quiz Coordinator for 3rd National Pharmacy Quiz 2011.. due2 tanggungjwb ni agak berat sbnrnye.. both memerlukan aku communicate with the lecturers and not to forget, communicating with other people especially the coursemates.. it's

hard to fulfill other people's expectations, but I've tried my best.. pernah la ju

gak kdg2 terganggu emosi n tertumpah air mate mase galas tanggungjwb ni, tp it doesn't matter coz that's what makes me stronger.. sometimes, aku terfikir, lykke aku pgg jwtn ni, sbb honestly I have to admit, there are times when I can't work well under pressure.. thanx to my colleagues for giving me supports especially during that time.. I'll try to improve myself next time..

2 je kot mende2 yg plg significant bg aku for 2011.. byk jer mende2 kecik lain yg happened.. but i won't write bout it.. and as usual, bile dtg thn baru, mesti org ckp psl azam baru.. aku? juz want to be a better person from day to day.. jadi mcm mereka2 aku yg aku kagumi n buang karat2 jahiliah dlm diri ni.. generally 2011 brings a happy ending to my life, tp i'm not sure bout the exam part.. is it going to have a happy ending too? i really2 hope so.. how i wish life can be easy as the fairy tale, where they will live happily ever after.. but is it going to happen in reality? only Allah knows..

Life is an Exam..

Alhamdulillah.. da settle 2 papers for today.. Kurang la ckit beban but still have more to go.. Akan ku tabahkan diri menghadap notes yg sampai 2 fail pon xmmpu nk memuatkan semuanyer.. All the best for me and Rx8!

ok, mase musim exam ni, we kept thinking and preparing ourselves for this 'ujian' which is the final exam.. so, usrah n tazkirah mase iftar sis Rx8 dulu pon berkaitan dgn ujian.. actually kite mmg xleh lari dr ujian kt dunia ni.. sakit, malas, lapar, ngantuk, xde duit, sume 2 ujian utk kite.. yg menarik mase usrah ari2 is that we were asked to share each of our greatest problem that we have faced sepanjang idup kt dunia ni.. so, I kept thinking hard n recalling all the memories of life I ever had.. tp x trjumpa lg any ujian yg boley dikategorikan as getir.. so, I juz tell one of my problem that amongst all the prob I had, I considered it as the biggest one.. then, each of us tell their own stories.. ade yg quite shocking n sdey.. so at that moment, I thought, prob dyorg lg besar dr prob aku.. tp aku, stakat prob yg ni je pon aku bley nangis tiap2 ari.. hmm.. how lucky I was to be in this position.. but how lucky they are to experence all those things which eventually makes them stronger..

the problem we faced itself does not matter, what matters most is how to deal with it.. so, as a Muslim, we have to face all the problems by kebergantungan pade Allah.. always think that among all the people in the earth, Allah has chosen ME to experience this problem.. why is that?? simply bcoz Allah knows that u can handle it!

Dalam Surah al-Insyirah (which is my favorite surah):

"Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan dadamu (Muhammad)?. Dan Kami pun telah menurunkan beban darimu. Yang memberatkan punggungmu, Dan Kami tinggikan sebutan namamu bagimu. Maka sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ada kemudahan. Sesungguhnya bersama kesulitan ade kemudahan. Maka apabila engkau telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), tetaplah bekerja keras (untuk urusan yang lain), dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah engkau berharap."

so, whatever problem that u face, no matter how hard the exam questions are, remember! There is always a solution for every problem.. Allah xkan membebankan sesuatu kaum melainkan dalam kemampuannya.. yg plg penting, tawakallah pd Allah sebagaimana tawakal Nabi Ibrahim masa dicampakkan ke dlm api yg marak.. InsyaAllah, all is well.. :D

p/s: mentang2 ade 3 hari gap between nexr papers, perasaan malas membuak2 dlm diri.. huhu.. notes da sedia tersusun kt sblh, tunggu tgn n minda yg bersedia jek untuk grab mende ni.. GAMBATTE!

All The Best!

hey it's me! and I'm blogging!

assalamualaikum n a very good morning here.. a quite chilly morning I'll say.. dah few days I'm studying in my room with a sweater on and a pair of socks.. tyme mandi lagi la sjuk.. huhu.. how I wish kat mahallah ni ade hot shower, bley la mandi puas2 tyme musim sejuk ni.. tetiba rse rindu kt umah plak.. hmm, anyway, what triggers me to open a blog and start writing is mase usrah semalam.. we talked about ujian in life and how to overcome it.. so, at that moment, i tought, I'm not the type who likes to express my feelings n probs 2 others.. I know it's not good.. I know luahan perasaan 2 is a kind of therapy but I dunno.. mmg aku jenis yg keep it to myself.. klu aku tensen, aku akan nangis sorg2 dlm blk as quite as I can.. I juz don't want to make it a big deal.. my problem, I'll face it myself.. so, azam aku nk msk thn baru ni, is I'm going to open up a little bit, but not by speaking to others, but through writing in this blog.. xdela tensen simpan sorg2 kan..

p/s: ari khamis ni exam islamic input.. boringnyer bce almost 30+ notes..(ofcoz la xabes lg..) dahla bband da overlimit.. xley nk update suju videos, extravagant challenge, wgm n invincible youth 2.. huaaa..