Incomplete

Peace be upon you...

Another few months to finish this prp training.. However, i still find myself lacking in many ways.. Sometimes i feel burdened when most of the people say that hpp is a good training place for prp.. Maybe it is me who are not eager and keen enough to find and grab the knowledge.. Im not gonna give any excuses or blame it on others anymore.. Deep in my heart, i sincerely hope that my next posting will be somewhere in my hometown.. Although i met a lot of good friends here which i am grateful for, willing to stay with us for the never ending work, i still feel lonely. A huge part of it is because my family is not here with me. And sometimes i was left alone in weekend with no one to hang out with. So sad, right? Haha.. But i'm not saying that i want to marry soon, ok.. Hopefully i can survive this loneliness for another few months.

p/s: this post is written after i found out that i cannot go back home this merdeka since the bus tickets were all sold out... Flight ticket is too damn expensive since no direct flight available from penang-trg.. Still wondering whether i will spend the holiday alone at home or i will have solo travel around penang.. Huhu

Struggling. Adapting.

I know im already halfway to finish this prp training. Another 6 months and insyaAllah i`ll be free from this hectic prp life.. It`s an unexplainable feeling that i have now going through all this.. Being alone in a strange place without my family has never been an issue for me before this since i was in high school but now, it`s totally different.. Different environment and different responsibilities. Honestly im missing home sooo much and seeing others went back home on weekend and even those who r lucky to stay with their families, it really makes me feel jealous. How i wish i can work in trg besides my family. But Allah has a better plan for me here. I have to keep believing and moving on until i get to the finish line..

P/s: finding the right time to go back home, even just on weekend is reaaally hard. Lots of things to settle, lots of duty to be done. May Allah ease me and put my heart at peace during this struggle.. Amen..

Don't You Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,

When the funds are low and the debts are high,

And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, 

When care is pressing down a bit, 

Rest if you must -  but don't you quit.

Life is a queer with its twists and turns,

As sooner or later everyone learns,

And many a failure turns about, 

When he might have won had he stuck it out,

Don't give up when the pace seems slow-

You might succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer

Than it seems to a faint and faltering man,

Often the struggler has given up

When he might have captured the victor's cup,

And he learned too late, when the night slipped down, 

How close he was to the Golden crown.

Success is failure turn inside out - 

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt - 

And you can never tell how close you are,

It may be near and it might be far,

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit - 

It's when things seem worse that you musn't quit.

This is a poem I've encountered when I read a motivational book when I was in high school. I can't remember the exact title of the book, but I really love this poem I decided to write it down on a piece of paper and pasted it on my board during my matriculation years. Now, after 4 years of studying in Kuantan and while digging into my 'treasure boxes' under the bed, i finally discovered this poem again. I wondered why I only found the paper till now, when I only have around 1 month to graduate.. Haha.. Never mind, I can always read it when I'm down and that's why I decided to write it here on the blog. 

p/s: FYI, most of my coursemates are having trips to USM and UPM. Since I didn't take both of the elective subjects, I was left out here in Kuantan for two days (3 days to be exact, since I only have VIVA on thursday and my CBL is cancelled) and our plan to Genting has also been cancelled, so here I am, doing nothing in the room except for digging into old stuff and getting ready to clear the room.. Sad, huh?

Jumaat yg menguji kesabaran..

Assalamualaikum~

Arini, ari jumaat, 5/10/2012.. Today was the day that have tested my emotion and patience up to a certain limit.. I don't want to talk about it too much, afraid it will ignite the anger again in my heart. Sometimes rase stress bile bekerja ngn org, mereka xhargai kite mcm mane kite hargai mereka.. I know I'm not perfect, but at least I've tried to do my best and most importantly, x menyusahkan org esp bile dah last2 minit.. Imagine, u have to put something on hold juz bcoz of someone.. Everytime aku nk buat kerja (especially kerja yg melibatkan org lain), I always remind myself:

Bila kite mudahkan kerja org, insyaAllah Allah akan mudahkan kerja kita

Even dlm hadis Rasulullah pernah ckp;

“Barang siapa melepaskan seorang mukmin dari kesusahan hidup di dunia, niscaya Allah akan melepaskan darinya kesusahan di hari kiamat, barang siapa memudahkan urusan (mukmin) yang sulit nescaya Allah akan memudahkan urusannya di dunia dan akhirat. Barang siapa menutup aib seorang muslim, maka Allah akan menutup aibnya di dunia dan akhirat. Allah akan menolong seorang hamba, selama hamba itu sentiasa menolong saudaranya.” – Imam Muslim

So, a gentle reminder for myself n kawan2 yg bakal berkerja bersama2, xkire anda ni golongan pandai ke, golongan biase2 jek mcm saye ni ke, or ape2 golongan sekali pon, u have ur own role, play ur role as best as u can, without u, the team won't be complete.. analogi dlm kehidupan kite as student pharmacy, without ur part utk any report, the report won't be complete, thus causing u and ur teammates to suffer for ur faults..

Let's complement each other.. =D

It's Suffocating

i'm suffocating..

tired..

my body say: "Why do I have to do all this? Don't u feel tired?"

my mind say: "Oh! Please give me a break!"

but my heart say: "Just go on.. Do what u are supposed to do.. It's your responsibility to do all this.. Just do it and try to have fun with it.."

And of course, body and mind have to follow what the heart says..

and this is where I am now, doing all the job I have to do;

quizzes, just say when and how many topics, I'll bear with it..

society works, just say what u need and I'll prepare it..

coz that's what I do best..

juggling between works and study have never been easy..

Bear with it! :)

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." (al-Baqarah: 216)

p/s: sometimes I feel bad coz I can't really say what I want and I can't show what I feel.. oh, can somebody help me how to be strict and nice and make others listen at you at the same time?

hey it's me! and I'm blogging!

assalamualaikum n a very good morning here.. a quite chilly morning I'll say.. dah few days I'm studying in my room with a sweater on and a pair of socks.. tyme mandi lagi la sjuk.. huhu.. how I wish kat mahallah ni ade hot shower, bley la mandi puas2 tyme musim sejuk ni.. tetiba rse rindu kt umah plak.. hmm, anyway, what triggers me to open a blog and start writing is mase usrah semalam.. we talked about ujian in life and how to overcome it.. so, at that moment, i tought, I'm not the type who likes to express my feelings n probs 2 others.. I know it's not good.. I know luahan perasaan 2 is a kind of therapy but I dunno.. mmg aku jenis yg keep it to myself.. klu aku tensen, aku akan nangis sorg2 dlm blk as quite as I can.. I juz don't want to make it a big deal.. my problem, I'll face it myself.. so, azam aku nk msk thn baru ni, is I'm going to open up a little bit, but not by speaking to others, but through writing in this blog.. xdela tensen simpan sorg2 kan..

p/s: ari khamis ni exam islamic input.. boringnyer bce almost 30+ notes..(ofcoz la xabes lg..) dahla bband da overlimit.. xley nk update suju videos, extravagant challenge, wgm n invincible youth 2.. huaaa..