Alhamdulillah, dah lepas sebulan Ramadhan and now time utk raya! this year, kitorg raya kat Rawang sbb nenek belah mak dah duduk dgn uncle, so kitorg pakat kumpul kat rumah dye jek kat Rawang. Supposedly kitorg raya kat Muar sbb kampung kt cna, tp skrg dah xde kampung dah, jadi terbalik plak sbb biase org balik kampung KL-Trg, tp skrg kitorg dari Trg-KL.. hehe.. And this year's raya is better than the previous one, sbb sume makcik2 pakcik2 family belah mak kitorg sempat jupe.. Alhamdulillah.. ;)
And for me now, my time for raya has just a week left.. Eh, bukan raya sebulan ke? Yes, but not if I'm going to PLKN 17/8 ni.. huhu.. But honestly, I'm still contemplating whether to go or not. Oh, for those who wonder asl PLKN plak tetiba ni, let me make it short...... Aku dpt panggilan PLKN masa kat CFS, and of coz la mtk tangguh. And then, out of nowhere, tetiba last few weeks dpt srt panggilan masuk sbb da tamat tempoh penangguhan. Haih, aku langsung xteringat da psl menda alah ni.. huhu.. mau je nk nangis tyme terima sampul surat 2 dari abg posmen 2.. T_T
*uhuk* *uhuk*
I do have many concerns as why I wouldn't like to go there :
First, the timing xkena. And memang xkan kena sampai bila2.. haha.. Memangla aku tgh menganggur, but I'm waiting for my offer letter for posting which can be anytime in September, hopefully. This PL** thing is for THREE MONTHS, which is until November, so aku xnak tangguh prp semata2 nk masuk PL**. I can't wait to start working and have my own money.. hehe
Next, age. Aku lahir tahun 1990. Ari2 baca kat paper, skarang panggilan PL** utk mereka yg lahir tahun 1996. See, SIX years different! That is quiet a huge gap, tau.. huhu.. I'm 23 and I'll be surrounded by high school students who has yet to enter university. Bukan la nak underestimate dyorg, tp aku sendiri yg takut xselesa and xley adapt dgn dyorg nnti..
Then came the routine. Kawan aku ckp, pagi pergi kelas, then ptg kawad, malam ade aktiviti, ala lebey kurang mcm zaman duduk kt MRSM dulu la.. bgn pagi, g kelas, prep ptg, riadah, prep malam.. And kawad kaki ialah mende yg aku paling xsuke zaman sekolah dulu.. Malasnyer nak kembali ke zaman bdk2 MRSM dulu, tido kat dorm ramai2, berebut2 bilik air, berebut ampaian, beratur ambik makanan, roll call, alah mende2 tulah.. I've experienced all those things before, and u know what, aku baru abis belajar, nak suruh pergi kelas lagi? haih, and I heard the classes were super boring........ Honestly, I'd love the outdoor and adventurous activity mcm masuk hutan, water confidence, flying fox, tembak2 etc tp kalau la aku bley join mende2 tu jek in a short period of time, paling lama pon sebulan la, without all those classes, confirm aku rela hati pergi!
My last concern is money. Haha. Actually aku baru buat deal ngn akak aku nak tolong babysit anak dye start bulan 8 ni sbb dye nak tukar tempat kerja with a payment of RM300/month. Kire mcm part time job kat rumah sementara menganggur ni la. Kan dah terpaksa melepaskan jawatan baru aku ni. Huhu. Yeah, I know, pergi sana pun dapat elaun RM150/month. Half dr apa yg akak aku offer, tu pn kena cukupkan sebulan. Less money but with huge amount of sacrifices.
inilah mende2 yg menyebabkan aku was2 lagi pasal pemergianku nanti. *chewah* I know, mostly sbb aku jek yg berfikiran negatif and ade org ckp bley je nego ngn komando kem nnti klu nk kuar awal, tp aku malas.. hehe.. Seriously aku rase xnak pergi sangat2, apetah lagi bila tau ramai jek org yg xpergi and xde ape2 tindakan lagi setakat ni.. Tapi sebagai law abiding citizens, my parents insist suruh pergi, senang settelkan terus. But in the end, it's still up to me kan? Oh Allah, please guide me in making this decision and help me choose it wisely.. Amin....
